I feel like soaring from side to side in the entire gap of the sky, just because i'm in love.
I feel like helping out all the fortunates, just because i'm in love.
I feel like floating by the wind to the auxiliary destination, just because i'm in love.
I feel like feeding all the birds, just because i'm in love.
I feel like throwing the red tulips to the massive crowd, just because i'm in love.
I feel like sharing my joy to the broken hearts, just because i'm in love.
I feel like giving deusional, lost minds my hand; carry them all the way up, just because i'm in love.
I feel like being a warm shoulder for a crying spirit, just because i'm in love.
I feel like telling my story to the survived souls, just because i'm in love.
I feel like believing the fortune, just because i'm in love.
I feel like plying the forgotten song, just because i'm in love.
I feel like dancing waltz in the moonlight, just because i'm in love.
I feel like tendering the broken hearts, just becase i'm in love.
I feel like wearing the naked soul warm clothes, just because i'm in love.
I feel like giving the thirsty desire the sacred water, just because i'm in love.
I feel like giving the starved living thing a bite of that forbidden apple, just because i'm in love.
I feel like riding the horse to the last part of the pond, just because i'm in love.
I feel like pushing the ferry to the banned sea, just because i'm in love.
I feel like coloring red all the walls, just because i'm in love.
I feel like painting all over the entire breating space, just because i'm in love.
I feel like climbing to the top of the mount, just because i'm in love.
I feel like swimming in the chily waterway, just because i'm in love.
I feel like washing my whole human body,and the guilts in the holy sacred water, just because i'm in love.
I feel like taking a sip of that night's red wine, just because i'm in love.
I feel like stepping out i the rain, just because i'm in love.
I feel like being insane in the saintly sanctuary, just because i'm in love.
I feel like running on the burning stones;flowing blood, just because i'm in love .
I feel like giving up my whole sense and desires of being loved to you ''my love", just because i'm in love.
Saloume Nakhsaz
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Monday, November 28, 2005
Forbidden apple !
: I feel lost.i'm so embaressed of myself,my own self-respect, what i have done to my soul?
: You did nothing wrong, it's ok.
: I've insulted the nature's rules.i've insulted my own roots.
: you did nothing wrong.
: I hurt my own soul, my own being, my own self-respect.
: you did nothing wrong.
: My path is revailed, i'm having uturn to nowhere, i know it, but it doesn't help.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i lied to myself, i lied to others, i lied to him, i lied to nature.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i made me ashamed after being expert in these years.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i waisted my senses ,made them all vained, this road goes nowhere.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i sweard to God not to do it again, but i did it again ,when everything was so perfect.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i left stain in the river of the saints.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i held my breath to get the poisened air.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i crossed the forbidden lake, with sarrow and pain.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i polished the dark cave.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i humilated the God's rules.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i called off my own happiness.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i had one piece of forbiiden apple.
: you did nothing wrong.
: Darling, i fell in love,it's insane.
: you did nothing wrong.
SaloumeNakhsaz
: You did nothing wrong, it's ok.
: I've insulted the nature's rules.i've insulted my own roots.
: you did nothing wrong.
: I hurt my own soul, my own being, my own self-respect.
: you did nothing wrong.
: My path is revailed, i'm having uturn to nowhere, i know it, but it doesn't help.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i lied to myself, i lied to others, i lied to him, i lied to nature.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i made me ashamed after being expert in these years.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i waisted my senses ,made them all vained, this road goes nowhere.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i sweard to God not to do it again, but i did it again ,when everything was so perfect.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i left stain in the river of the saints.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i held my breath to get the poisened air.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i crossed the forbidden lake, with sarrow and pain.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i polished the dark cave.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i humilated the God's rules.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i called off my own happiness.
: you did nothing wrong.
: i had one piece of forbiiden apple.
: you did nothing wrong.
: Darling, i fell in love,it's insane.
: you did nothing wrong.
SaloumeNakhsaz
I've missed her so much.
She was a red tulip, which was taken by the gardener too early, because she was so fragile to be there.
She was a fresh air for the suffocating breath.
She was a beautiful smile; fainted in the cloud.
She was a pure heart for the forbidden life.
She was a blossom for the neglected beauty.
She was a sincere touch for the moonlight.
She was a shining star in the solid dark.
She was an art of God for the desired land.
She was a sense of love for the broken hearts.
SaloumeNakhsaz
She was a fresh air for the suffocating breath.
She was a beautiful smile; fainted in the cloud.
She was a pure heart for the forbidden life.
She was a blossom for the neglected beauty.
She was a sincere touch for the moonlight.
She was a shining star in the solid dark.
She was an art of God for the desired land.
She was a sense of love for the broken hearts.
SaloumeNakhsaz
I'll sing a song for you,so dance with me.
You: wait. i'll take you there;with no pain my love ''wait''.
Me : my heart feels pain. i have deraled aim.
You : wait , i'll get you down the road soon ;my love ''wait".
Me : it's nice of you , but it's too late.
You: wait, there is sunshine there.
Me: great, but my eyes hurt when i see sunshine.
You: wait, there is a sky full of shining stars there.
Me: i love stars , but i'll faint , at midnight late.
You : wait, we'll build a nice house at the top of the mountains there.
Me: dear , i respect mountains ,but it's too high ; i'm scared .
You: wait, i'll be a shoulder for your pains.
Me : well, but the pain is in my chest ,a shoulder can't hold there, it's too late.
You: wait, i'll help you catch up with your breath.
Me: you are fresh air, but i can't inhale the air, it's too late.
You: wait, we'll travel to Bombay , you can see the temples there.
Me : i love temples, but it's hot there, i have trouble breathing air.
You : wait, i'll carry you all the way.
I told you with pain : that road is vain.
You: wait, i'll find you a place, you can sit there and paint.
Me: i loved to , but there is nothing left to paint.
you: wait, i'll be dancing with you there.
Me: i'm not able to dance; there is no music left.
You: wait, i'll hold your heart,while you're feeling pain.
i'll help you keep your fate.
i'll hold you ;while you're looking at the stars.
i'll hold you tight ,while your staying at the top of the mountains.
i'll put my hands on your heart , while you're holding on my shoulders.
i'll hold my breath, exhale it to you ; while youre catching up the fresh air.
i'll carry lots of shadows ; while we traveling to the temples.
i'll clear out the roads ;while i'm carrying you all the way.
i'll show you all to paint .
i'll sing you songs ,while we're dancing together.
I told you: i'll come along.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Me : my heart feels pain. i have deraled aim.
You : wait , i'll get you down the road soon ;my love ''wait".
Me : it's nice of you , but it's too late.
You: wait, there is sunshine there.
Me: great, but my eyes hurt when i see sunshine.
You: wait, there is a sky full of shining stars there.
Me: i love stars , but i'll faint , at midnight late.
You : wait, we'll build a nice house at the top of the mountains there.
Me: dear , i respect mountains ,but it's too high ; i'm scared .
You: wait, i'll be a shoulder for your pains.
Me : well, but the pain is in my chest ,a shoulder can't hold there, it's too late.
You: wait, i'll help you catch up with your breath.
Me: you are fresh air, but i can't inhale the air, it's too late.
You: wait, we'll travel to Bombay , you can see the temples there.
Me : i love temples, but it's hot there, i have trouble breathing air.
You : wait, i'll carry you all the way.
I told you with pain : that road is vain.
You: wait, i'll find you a place, you can sit there and paint.
Me: i loved to , but there is nothing left to paint.
you: wait, i'll be dancing with you there.
Me: i'm not able to dance; there is no music left.
You: wait, i'll hold your heart,while you're feeling pain.
i'll help you keep your fate.
i'll hold you ;while you're looking at the stars.
i'll hold you tight ,while your staying at the top of the mountains.
i'll put my hands on your heart , while you're holding on my shoulders.
i'll hold my breath, exhale it to you ; while youre catching up the fresh air.
i'll carry lots of shadows ; while we traveling to the temples.
i'll clear out the roads ;while i'm carrying you all the way.
i'll show you all to paint .
i'll sing you songs ,while we're dancing together.
I told you: i'll come along.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Sunday, November 27, 2005
What if ?
What if there were no hope in life?
What if there were no ears to listen?
What if there were no heart to beat?
What if there were no music to listen ?
What if there were no dance floor?
What if there were no book to read?
What if there were no soul to feel?
What if there were no sunshine?
What if there were no moonlight?
What if there where no place to go?
What if there were no shoulder to cry?
SaloumeNakhsaz
What if there were no ears to listen?
What if there were no heart to beat?
What if there were no music to listen ?
What if there were no dance floor?
What if there were no book to read?
What if there were no soul to feel?
What if there were no sunshine?
What if there were no moonlight?
What if there where no place to go?
What if there were no shoulder to cry?
SaloumeNakhsaz
Dance when you fly
Dance in the moonlight.
Dance in the shadow of the temple.
Dance in the crowd of drunks .
Dance in the sunshine.
Dance in the dark of the nights.
Dance in the sadness of hearts.
Dance with the cloudy ,crying eyes.
Dance in the silence of the death.
Dance in the rainy time.
Dance when you fly.
Dance at the end of the line.
Dance on the icy road.
Dance with the broken wing birds.
Dance at the edge of solitude.
Dance with him ,in love.
Dance with falling leaves in fall.
Close your eyes,keep your smile and dance in the dark.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Dance in the shadow of the temple.
Dance in the crowd of drunks .
Dance in the sunshine.
Dance in the dark of the nights.
Dance in the sadness of hearts.
Dance with the cloudy ,crying eyes.
Dance in the silence of the death.
Dance in the rainy time.
Dance when you fly.
Dance at the end of the line.
Dance on the icy road.
Dance with the broken wing birds.
Dance at the edge of solitude.
Dance with him ,in love.
Dance with falling leaves in fall.
Close your eyes,keep your smile and dance in the dark.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Saturday, November 26, 2005
It's sunny
Whenever i sit to lit a cigarett;it's dark inside , and the sky is black,solid black.
Whenever i fall in love ;it's raining and the sky is dark blue.
Whenever my heart breaks ; it's sunny, cloudless, and the sky is baby blue.
Whenever i celebrate my birthday; it's cloudy,and the sky is black ; full of shining stars .
Whenever i drink a glass of wine; it's freezing cold and the sky is red.
Whenever i see a true friend ; it's summer, and the sky is green like the colour of her eyes.
Whenever i talk to my parents ; it's late at night and the sky is grey.
Whenever i hear someone has died ;it's snowing and the sky is white, white.
Whenever i listen to a music, read a book,write a letter; it's fall, and the sky is purple; like the colour of the leaves.
Wenever i'm high; it's windy,i fly with the wind through the sky; the sky has the coloure of my eyes.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Whenever i fall in love ;it's raining and the sky is dark blue.
Whenever my heart breaks ; it's sunny, cloudless, and the sky is baby blue.
Whenever i celebrate my birthday; it's cloudy,and the sky is black ; full of shining stars .
Whenever i drink a glass of wine; it's freezing cold and the sky is red.
Whenever i see a true friend ; it's summer, and the sky is green like the colour of her eyes.
Whenever i talk to my parents ; it's late at night and the sky is grey.
Whenever i hear someone has died ;it's snowing and the sky is white, white.
Whenever i listen to a music, read a book,write a letter; it's fall, and the sky is purple; like the colour of the leaves.
Wenever i'm high; it's windy,i fly with the wind through the sky; the sky has the coloure of my eyes.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Look at you, you are great,you think great,you're style is great and i love your mentality and believs .
me: Oh really, you think so?, thank you. I didn't know you like my stories and my blieves,didn't you have another opinion before , meeting me here?
yes, but i changed my mind.
oh ya?you mean looking at me will change your opinion about the sience and politics and so and so,?
:ya why not, it's because you give such a strong influence when you explain about your points of view.
:but i haven't started talking about it ,to you yet?
:oh, i noticed that.but i can feel it, anyway ,i like you and your ideas.
:Why don't you tell me ,you like me and not my ideas.you think you can impress me more if you tell me your fell in love with my ideas in a second?
:Maybe?
:No ,your absolutely wrong.... i would say, either you're a horny man who wants to get in to someone's pant as soon as he can ,so he can give up all he has,most important his thoughts and believes in order to just have sex with some one he bearly knows .or i would say you are a little ,human ,who has got no brain in his head ,because he got impressed and persued just by taking alook at the writer.
I'm sorry in one word,you're lost,you're lost in your thoughts, manner and you're lost in your desires.
:you are so wonderful in giving someone a lesson.ok i am educated now about your points and ideas ,then may i see you another time for a coffee now?
:i haven't said anything about that subject yet.
:Yes, i know,but i love it.or i'll love it. and i love you.
:You said you love me?you mean ,in this 10 minutes talk,your beliefs and heart got stolen from you and you are such a looser now! aren't you.
SaloumeNakhsaz
me: Oh really, you think so?, thank you. I didn't know you like my stories and my blieves,didn't you have another opinion before , meeting me here?
yes, but i changed my mind.
oh ya?you mean looking at me will change your opinion about the sience and politics and so and so,?
:ya why not, it's because you give such a strong influence when you explain about your points of view.
:but i haven't started talking about it ,to you yet?
:oh, i noticed that.but i can feel it, anyway ,i like you and your ideas.
:Why don't you tell me ,you like me and not my ideas.you think you can impress me more if you tell me your fell in love with my ideas in a second?
:Maybe?
:No ,your absolutely wrong.... i would say, either you're a horny man who wants to get in to someone's pant as soon as he can ,so he can give up all he has,most important his thoughts and believes in order to just have sex with some one he bearly knows .or i would say you are a little ,human ,who has got no brain in his head ,because he got impressed and persued just by taking alook at the writer.
I'm sorry in one word,you're lost,you're lost in your thoughts, manner and you're lost in your desires.
:you are so wonderful in giving someone a lesson.ok i am educated now about your points and ideas ,then may i see you another time for a coffee now?
:i haven't said anything about that subject yet.
:Yes, i know,but i love it.or i'll love it. and i love you.
:You said you love me?you mean ,in this 10 minutes talk,your beliefs and heart got stolen from you and you are such a looser now! aren't you.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Friday, November 25, 2005
Life goes on
Flying in the raining sky. getting wet.
dancing at the edge of darkness .
swimming in your thoughts,your forbidden thoughts.
hanging your pictures with smile on the wall. maybe 2 or 5.
checking your mailbox , looking for a love letter.
putting flowers, red roses and the tulips on your desk.
Hanging around with the friends, laughing and looking for one friendly eyes.
getting high, floating in the cloud.
Listening to a classic music to releave your soul and your thoughts.
Calling your parents and saying you're happy.
Jogging at the cemetery close to your house. and getting the life-length average, which is 70.
Doing yoga at night ,before you go to bed.
Meditating when your in bed, before you fall sleep.
Counting the sheeps to thousand one, if meditating didn't help.
Lighting a cigarett in the morning with a black coffee on your way to go out .
Checking the BBC news, looking for another day's victoms and misery. starvation in africa and earthquake in Iran, Finding out how many people have died.
Going to doc to have check-up on your health and telling her you're feeling ok. and everything is normal.
Having afternoon coffe either at work or with your friend.
Complaining about weather,pretending here is not meant to be the coldest place in the world.
going to movie on friday nights or on monday. getting happy or sad or scared.
Going to church or a mosque , begging God to forgive your guilts, even the ones you haven't done yet.
SaloumeNakhsaz
dancing at the edge of darkness .
swimming in your thoughts,your forbidden thoughts.
hanging your pictures with smile on the wall. maybe 2 or 5.
checking your mailbox , looking for a love letter.
putting flowers, red roses and the tulips on your desk.
Hanging around with the friends, laughing and looking for one friendly eyes.
getting high, floating in the cloud.
Listening to a classic music to releave your soul and your thoughts.
Calling your parents and saying you're happy.
Jogging at the cemetery close to your house. and getting the life-length average, which is 70.
Doing yoga at night ,before you go to bed.
Meditating when your in bed, before you fall sleep.
Counting the sheeps to thousand one, if meditating didn't help.
Lighting a cigarett in the morning with a black coffee on your way to go out .
Checking the BBC news, looking for another day's victoms and misery. starvation in africa and earthquake in Iran, Finding out how many people have died.
Going to doc to have check-up on your health and telling her you're feeling ok. and everything is normal.
Having afternoon coffe either at work or with your friend.
Complaining about weather,pretending here is not meant to be the coldest place in the world.
going to movie on friday nights or on monday. getting happy or sad or scared.
Going to church or a mosque , begging God to forgive your guilts, even the ones you haven't done yet.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Do it for me?
Dad:Look at this glass of wine,What you see?
me:A glass and wine in it!
Dad: how much wine is there in it?
Me: a little.i've alresdy finished it.
Dad:Why everything is so dark in your mind?
Me: No it's not.
Dad:Yes it is.
Me:No it's not.i'm happy .you don't see it.i'm smiling.i'm always smiling.didn't you notice that?
Dad:Yes.i did notice it.that's why i am scared.
Me: your'e scared ,because of my smile .you don't want me smile at you,at ma,at my friends,at people,at world?
Dad: sure,i do and sure i don't .
Me: dad i don't get it.
Dad: you smile at the world around you,at people at me,because you don't want anybody,any observer in universe see your sadness. but you cant lie to universe, you can't ,because of your eyes.
Me:............... Then,shall i stop smiling dad?
Dad: No, keep smiling,but smile with your eyes, then i feel safe and happy.
Me: I can't,i can't dad.
Dad: Why,darling sure if you try you can.
Me: Dad; my eyes are the witness of the life my eyes are the observer of my heart ,and how it's possible for an observer to close her eyes and go blind? not witness a thing. No it's not possible.
My eyes see and my eyes cry and my eyes can never lie.
Dad: Try to smile with your eyes, ......................,because of me.
Me: I'm sorry.
SaloumeNakhsaz
me:A glass and wine in it!
Dad: how much wine is there in it?
Me: a little.i've alresdy finished it.
Dad:Why everything is so dark in your mind?
Me: No it's not.
Dad:Yes it is.
Me:No it's not.i'm happy .you don't see it.i'm smiling.i'm always smiling.didn't you notice that?
Dad:Yes.i did notice it.that's why i am scared.
Me: your'e scared ,because of my smile .you don't want me smile at you,at ma,at my friends,at people,at world?
Dad: sure,i do and sure i don't .
Me: dad i don't get it.
Dad: you smile at the world around you,at people at me,because you don't want anybody,any observer in universe see your sadness. but you cant lie to universe, you can't ,because of your eyes.
Me:............... Then,shall i stop smiling dad?
Dad: No, keep smiling,but smile with your eyes, then i feel safe and happy.
Me: I can't,i can't dad.
Dad: Why,darling sure if you try you can.
Me: Dad; my eyes are the witness of the life my eyes are the observer of my heart ,and how it's possible for an observer to close her eyes and go blind? not witness a thing. No it's not possible.
My eyes see and my eyes cry and my eyes can never lie.
Dad: Try to smile with your eyes, ......................,because of me.
Me: I'm sorry.
SaloumeNakhsaz
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
One more time
I fell in love just like a 14 years old virgin who just stepped in her youth.
Just like an innocent child who gets shy when she sees the crowd, i feel shy whenever i take a glance at his face.
I am so in love that i won't spoil my feelings by telling him '' i love you''.
My dilute body is not able to handle this detachment.
My soul,my root is looking for him everywhere.
I'm scared if i say his name to the universe, they'll take him away from me,so i won't call his name.
He is so young and gentle ,he is the symbol of mankind to me.he is full of life and grace.
I ignore the others by my hand,my eyes and my heart. I can't see them, i am blind .
It's not important how much he loves me. it's important i do love him and i'll die for him.
This love gave me the passion ,heat, and a shining, holy wave to my soul which was an stranger to me for many many years.
I don't care what will happen to me, Cause i love him.
Loving him taught me to live in moments and to think about the seconds of life,
To forget about the future which is unknown and full of questions.
To love him at present ,Cause maybe tomorrow will never come and everything gets lost in the clouds.
To have hope for now and to play young for now.
I don't care what people would say, I don't care what they think, Bcause they don't know what love means.they can't see it,they can't feel it.
They can't see the sparkling shine in my eyes ,whenever i glance at him.
They think falling in love is like the kid's batteried carin his hands which he canpush it any side he wants.
No, in ''love'' road there is not such words like; calculus,book, logic .
''love'' is a different subject . it's too far beyond these words:right or wrong.
'' love '' is the truth and there is nothing beyond it .and it's the devotion of a being. it's about ''him'' and just him and there is no more ''me'' in this path.
You'll forget about ''you'',you can not see''you''.and you will join him.and you'll be united.
What ever you are is him now. and as further you go deeper in love as more you'll be the mass truth.
Now,you are the'' truth'' .
The truth can't be judged by other souls .
SaloumeNakhsaz
I
Just like an innocent child who gets shy when she sees the crowd, i feel shy whenever i take a glance at his face.
I am so in love that i won't spoil my feelings by telling him '' i love you''.
My dilute body is not able to handle this detachment.
My soul,my root is looking for him everywhere.
I'm scared if i say his name to the universe, they'll take him away from me,so i won't call his name.
He is so young and gentle ,he is the symbol of mankind to me.he is full of life and grace.
I ignore the others by my hand,my eyes and my heart. I can't see them, i am blind .
It's not important how much he loves me. it's important i do love him and i'll die for him.
This love gave me the passion ,heat, and a shining, holy wave to my soul which was an stranger to me for many many years.
I don't care what will happen to me, Cause i love him.
Loving him taught me to live in moments and to think about the seconds of life,
To forget about the future which is unknown and full of questions.
To love him at present ,Cause maybe tomorrow will never come and everything gets lost in the clouds.
To have hope for now and to play young for now.
I don't care what people would say, I don't care what they think, Bcause they don't know what love means.they can't see it,they can't feel it.
They can't see the sparkling shine in my eyes ,whenever i glance at him.
They think falling in love is like the kid's batteried carin his hands which he canpush it any side he wants.
No, in ''love'' road there is not such words like; calculus,book, logic .
''love'' is a different subject . it's too far beyond these words:right or wrong.
'' love '' is the truth and there is nothing beyond it .and it's the devotion of a being. it's about ''him'' and just him and there is no more ''me'' in this path.
You'll forget about ''you'',you can not see''you''.and you will join him.and you'll be united.
What ever you are is him now. and as further you go deeper in love as more you'll be the mass truth.
Now,you are the'' truth'' .
The truth can't be judged by other souls .
SaloumeNakhsaz
I
I bet you, i'll get the job
I think i'm ready for my interview with the oil company manager today.
This i a great position'' international exporting manager''.and i'll get it with the help and guidance of god and the holy book.
Let me go to the mirror and take alook at myself.
Well my long, thin, and dirty bears.
my nose is full of dirt and i haven't clean it since last month.
My eyes are swollen and it emphasizes on my heavy duty drug addiction.
My mouth ,let me look inside ,my teeth are yellow like the sun and it smells like the garbage can.
My hair;oily,smelly,it's like i washed it with mixed virgin olive oil and peanut butter.
My shoes or i should say my old, worn flip-flop,it is better to put on different colour plip-flop in different foot.
My pant or my old stitched sleeping pant,has no clear coloure on and it is dirty and stinky.
My shirt; which is dirty, wrinkled and stinks. It's white one day but now it's greyeesh -black coloure ,it's obviouse i haven't washed it for long time. It has some spots on it with food stains.
I doubt it,if i left something about my look which i didn't care about today.i am ready to go and surely this job is mine.
:Mr , i shall say that we can see you for this position and we have been reserving this job for you for weeks .
Also i should mention that there is no need for you to bring your education document and i can see you are so talented man, Just let me know if you know any english or not, so if you don't i'll hire a translator for you.maybe you need one . you know because of your title in here.
Say hello to ''ayatollah folani'' and i'll take care of the rest.Woud you do that?
:Sure sir.
Then with god's will, i shall congrajulate you for your new position in here.
: You deserve to have this important position ,Cause of your a religious and such a devoted person to god and to the prophets.and have aproper look based on our law.
God bless you brother.
SaloumeNakhsaz
This i a great position'' international exporting manager''.and i'll get it with the help and guidance of god and the holy book.
Let me go to the mirror and take alook at myself.
Well my long, thin, and dirty bears.
my nose is full of dirt and i haven't clean it since last month.
My eyes are swollen and it emphasizes on my heavy duty drug addiction.
My mouth ,let me look inside ,my teeth are yellow like the sun and it smells like the garbage can.
My hair;oily,smelly,it's like i washed it with mixed virgin olive oil and peanut butter.
My shoes or i should say my old, worn flip-flop,it is better to put on different colour plip-flop in different foot.
My pant or my old stitched sleeping pant,has no clear coloure on and it is dirty and stinky.
My shirt; which is dirty, wrinkled and stinks. It's white one day but now it's greyeesh -black coloure ,it's obviouse i haven't washed it for long time. It has some spots on it with food stains.
I doubt it,if i left something about my look which i didn't care about today.i am ready to go and surely this job is mine.
:Mr , i shall say that we can see you for this position and we have been reserving this job for you for weeks .
Also i should mention that there is no need for you to bring your education document and i can see you are so talented man, Just let me know if you know any english or not, so if you don't i'll hire a translator for you.maybe you need one . you know because of your title in here.
Say hello to ''ayatollah folani'' and i'll take care of the rest.Woud you do that?
:Sure sir.
Then with god's will, i shall congrajulate you for your new position in here.
: You deserve to have this important position ,Cause of your a religious and such a devoted person to god and to the prophets.and have aproper look based on our law.
God bless you brother.
SaloumeNakhsaz
I love you,but i am not in love with you
She:Do you understand what i am saying? i am saying i do love you but i am not in love with you.
He: No. Do you?
She: No, i don't either,but i know this fact that i love you but i am not in love with you. i love you but i am not in love with you.try to be open-minded for god sake.maybe it means i am not in '' love'' with you,because you left me alone ,and you are in '' love ''all by yourself. I mean this love is all yours,you are in it,you didn't take me in there with you ,it's not fair.why are you in ''love'' and i am left alone in here? ha?
why i am not in ''love'' with you?why you didn't take me?why?
You know what i don't love you any more,Cause i am not in'' love'' with you.
Do you understand me now?
He: yes i do,Do you?
She: I do.
It's so sad. I never thought of you being that selfish'' being in love without taking me there''.
SaloumeNakhsaz
He: No. Do you?
She: No, i don't either,but i know this fact that i love you but i am not in love with you. i love you but i am not in love with you.try to be open-minded for god sake.maybe it means i am not in '' love'' with you,because you left me alone ,and you are in '' love ''all by yourself. I mean this love is all yours,you are in it,you didn't take me in there with you ,it's not fair.why are you in ''love'' and i am left alone in here? ha?
why i am not in ''love'' with you?why you didn't take me?why?
You know what i don't love you any more,Cause i am not in'' love'' with you.
Do you understand me now?
He: yes i do,Do you?
She: I do.
It's so sad. I never thought of you being that selfish'' being in love without taking me there''.
SaloumeNakhsaz
I want to be a surgeon
I wanted people tell me i look so thin,so i went on a diet ,but i got huge .
You know why?
I avoid eating ,i didn't eat anything,not in the mornings,not at nights.
I started smoking to loose appetite; mornings and nights. but smoke got in and filled all my body and i exploded so , i got so huge,now i can't wear any of my clothes.
Everybody tells me ,wow you gained so much weight i see.R u pregnant? you seem like a balloon to me!!!!!!!!!!
Since then i am realizing that people's thoghts and opinion is just an illusion.
They never think about what they see .Cause nobody asked me how much i weighed before and how much i weigh now !even not one of them .
They just believed what they see .
Now do you undestand why i am saying i don't care what they say anymore.? Because their ideas about me or about anything is so misleading.
Tomorrow i am going to wear a white uniform and go to a hospital and do a surgery on one of these braineless people,i bet you no one is going to stop me there, you know why, because they see me wearing a surgeon uniform, then i must be one.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SaloumeNakhsaz
You know why?
I avoid eating ,i didn't eat anything,not in the mornings,not at nights.
I started smoking to loose appetite; mornings and nights. but smoke got in and filled all my body and i exploded so , i got so huge,now i can't wear any of my clothes.
Everybody tells me ,wow you gained so much weight i see.R u pregnant? you seem like a balloon to me!!!!!!!!!!
Since then i am realizing that people's thoghts and opinion is just an illusion.
They never think about what they see .Cause nobody asked me how much i weighed before and how much i weigh now !even not one of them .
They just believed what they see .
Now do you undestand why i am saying i don't care what they say anymore.? Because their ideas about me or about anything is so misleading.
Tomorrow i am going to wear a white uniform and go to a hospital and do a surgery on one of these braineless people,i bet you no one is going to stop me there, you know why, because they see me wearing a surgeon uniform, then i must be one.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SaloumeNakhsaz
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Don't eat late at night
She is my friend.
She is a beautiful girl ,with the green eyes like the new spring leaves.
She is my acqaintance ,my confidant, my associate in the time of solitude .
She is my warm shoulder in the cold,sad winters and in the hot summer of my isolation and solitariness.
She has a pure and fragile heart ,long forhead and matured and educated thoughts.
She is the girl with a forever lasting smile and eyes who can see through me and talk to me.
whenver i look at her ,i read her thoughts hrough her beautiful ,green eyes,and i always see one stable thoght inside her soul. which is saying to me:
My darling my soul is falling apart.My heart is sobbing for my solitude. We're left isolated in this forbidden land.
Where is my home.what a tragedy was our abondant.
I'm getting spaced-out. Where is the warm shoulder for my midnight cry.
I look at her and she sees my thoughts telling her
: My darling we are in the mass solitude. But bear with it. Life is too short . Try to be happy .
one day is the day of the absence,we'll die. Everything will be gone soon.
Try to switch your being world to your dream life. Imagine your dreams are the truth and the true life is just a dream.
Everything is going to be like it was in the past;normal and cloudless.
Don't ever forget where did you come from and don't ever forget your own soul.
Considering your roots ,you will remember all in your dreams and you'll be relished.
Try to work hard as harder as you can,with no advantages,therfor you will get involved in this stupid realty play, so you won't have any time to remember your rotten fate.
Avoid looking at the mirror,so you won't see the mark of the years of suffer and solitude on your beautiful downcast face.
Don't eat late at night ,so you can enjoy your night dreams as a real pleasant true life for now .
Get doped , It'll take you to the amazing sky.you'll fly away as far as you want my darling.
You'll see after all ,abandoning your own land is not that deffective.
SaloumeNakhsaz
She is a beautiful girl ,with the green eyes like the new spring leaves.
She is my acqaintance ,my confidant, my associate in the time of solitude .
She is my warm shoulder in the cold,sad winters and in the hot summer of my isolation and solitariness.
She has a pure and fragile heart ,long forhead and matured and educated thoughts.
She is the girl with a forever lasting smile and eyes who can see through me and talk to me.
whenver i look at her ,i read her thoughts hrough her beautiful ,green eyes,and i always see one stable thoght inside her soul. which is saying to me:
My darling my soul is falling apart.My heart is sobbing for my solitude. We're left isolated in this forbidden land.
Where is my home.what a tragedy was our abondant.
I'm getting spaced-out. Where is the warm shoulder for my midnight cry.
I look at her and she sees my thoughts telling her
: My darling we are in the mass solitude. But bear with it. Life is too short . Try to be happy .
one day is the day of the absence,we'll die. Everything will be gone soon.
Try to switch your being world to your dream life. Imagine your dreams are the truth and the true life is just a dream.
Everything is going to be like it was in the past;normal and cloudless.
Don't ever forget where did you come from and don't ever forget your own soul.
Considering your roots ,you will remember all in your dreams and you'll be relished.
Try to work hard as harder as you can,with no advantages,therfor you will get involved in this stupid realty play, so you won't have any time to remember your rotten fate.
Avoid looking at the mirror,so you won't see the mark of the years of suffer and solitude on your beautiful downcast face.
Don't eat late at night ,so you can enjoy your night dreams as a real pleasant true life for now .
Get doped , It'll take you to the amazing sky.you'll fly away as far as you want my darling.
You'll see after all ,abandoning your own land is not that deffective.
SaloumeNakhsaz
THANK YOU!
I shall say thank you.
You know it so funny,you said something to me without knowing how much it was worthed to me,you reminded me of something so important which i had forgotten for long time.
It all started when we were watching a movie together. at the begining it was such a great stroy and so as the middle of the story,but at the end,the whole story turned to such a nonesense.i tried so hard to put the pieces of this puzzle together,but i couldn't.i went so crazy and mad of what has happend ,i was always good in getting conclusions and catching up the points ,but what happened ,i could not understand the story,if the director was dump,it is ok ,but this director is genius and he should have some points and even though his points are crazy or wierd,but he always has some thing to say to the people.
I asked you how it can be possible.and if you got anything ?
You were cool about it,even though you didn't get the perfect story in your mind ,but you didn't bother . you told me ,don't worry this director is a lunatic.
I said but lunatics have more interesting things to say which we don'thave.
you said: it is normal if you don't understand it ,believe me.he didn't have any points,he is crazy.
But i couldn't stop thinking about the story in my head and i was making up my mind and wraping up the different parts together and talking to you about it as you as if you'rethe third party.
Y ou were too tired to think about what i am saying,either approve it or regret it.so you just told me ,you got the point ,it's great ,now go to bed.
I told you lets check the storyline out tomorrow in the internet to see if i am really right or wrong.
You : i rather if you don't .
Me: why,i wanna see if i am right or wrong.
You: I bet you'll see different points and visions about the strory and none of them are even the same, everybody look at the story the way she wants,as you did tonight. you did a great job,believe me.
That's it.so simple and so obviouse and so true.i knew it ,but recently, i totally forgot about this point in my life . Everybody looks at the things,stories ,a subject ,....differently.
Because every individual is unique and have his own vision and mind set.
This worldwide movie which is made by enormouse directors who play in their own story.and so often if you let them in,they will make you their own script for you to play.
So why not stop looking at the other's opinions and visions about your script,and concentrate on your own .because if you keep paying attention about their thoughts,you'll loose the track of your own life.you will keep spinning and spinning and one day, you're gonna fall down so bad ,and people will stop by ,look at you to make sure you need help,then they come to you give you a hand to stand still .
THIS IS GOING TO BE the beginning of dependancy and loosing your real balance, loosing your vision and loosing your thougths. they will start being your director .they write the script foryou ,you play in it.
How is that?
Any how, i should say again i am so thankful my darling.and i hope you enjoy the show.
SaloumeNakhsaz
You know it so funny,you said something to me without knowing how much it was worthed to me,you reminded me of something so important which i had forgotten for long time.
It all started when we were watching a movie together. at the begining it was such a great stroy and so as the middle of the story,but at the end,the whole story turned to such a nonesense.i tried so hard to put the pieces of this puzzle together,but i couldn't.i went so crazy and mad of what has happend ,i was always good in getting conclusions and catching up the points ,but what happened ,i could not understand the story,if the director was dump,it is ok ,but this director is genius and he should have some points and even though his points are crazy or wierd,but he always has some thing to say to the people.
I asked you how it can be possible.and if you got anything ?
You were cool about it,even though you didn't get the perfect story in your mind ,but you didn't bother . you told me ,don't worry this director is a lunatic.
I said but lunatics have more interesting things to say which we don'thave.
you said: it is normal if you don't understand it ,believe me.he didn't have any points,he is crazy.
But i couldn't stop thinking about the story in my head and i was making up my mind and wraping up the different parts together and talking to you about it as you as if you'rethe third party.
Y ou were too tired to think about what i am saying,either approve it or regret it.so you just told me ,you got the point ,it's great ,now go to bed.
I told you lets check the storyline out tomorrow in the internet to see if i am really right or wrong.
You : i rather if you don't .
Me: why,i wanna see if i am right or wrong.
You: I bet you'll see different points and visions about the strory and none of them are even the same, everybody look at the story the way she wants,as you did tonight. you did a great job,believe me.
That's it.so simple and so obviouse and so true.i knew it ,but recently, i totally forgot about this point in my life . Everybody looks at the things,stories ,a subject ,....differently.
Because every individual is unique and have his own vision and mind set.
This worldwide movie which is made by enormouse directors who play in their own story.and so often if you let them in,they will make you their own script for you to play.
So why not stop looking at the other's opinions and visions about your script,and concentrate on your own .because if you keep paying attention about their thoughts,you'll loose the track of your own life.you will keep spinning and spinning and one day, you're gonna fall down so bad ,and people will stop by ,look at you to make sure you need help,then they come to you give you a hand to stand still .
THIS IS GOING TO BE the beginning of dependancy and loosing your real balance, loosing your vision and loosing your thougths. they will start being your director .they write the script foryou ,you play in it.
How is that?
Any how, i should say again i am so thankful my darling.and i hope you enjoy the show.
SaloumeNakhsaz
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