Thursday, July 26, 2007

The more I see in my mind's eye, the less I desire to commune.

tell me about it

There were three kings and a jolly three too. The first one had a broken nose, the second, a broken arm and the third was broke. “ Faith is the key!” said the first king. “ No, froth is the key!” said the second,” you’re both wrong,” said the third, “ the key is Frank!”
It was late in the evening and Frank was sweeping up, preparing the meat and dishing himself out when there came a knock upon the door.” Who is it?” he mused. “ It’s us, Frank,” said the three kings in unison, “ and we’d like to have a word with you!” Frank opened the door and the three kings crawled in.
Terry shute was in the midst of prying open an hairdresser when Frank’s wife came in and caught him.” They’re here!” she gasped. Terry dropped his drawer and rubbed the eye. “ What do the appear to be like?” one’s got a broken vessel and that’s the truth, he other two I’m not so sure about.” fine, thank you, that will be all.”” God “ she turned and puffed. Terry tightened his belt and inhaled after thought, stated:”Wit!””Yes?”How many of them would you say they were?” Vera smiled; she tapped her toe three times. Terry watched her foot closely. “Three?” he asked, hesitating. Vera nodded.
“Get up off my floor!” shouted Frank. The second king, who was first to rise, mumbled, “Where’s the better half, Frank?”Frank who was in no mood for jokes, took it lightly, replied,” she’s in the back of the house, flaming it up with an arrogant man, now come on, out with it, what’s on our little minds today?” nobody answered.
Terry Shute then entered the room with a bang, looking the three kings over and fonding his mop. Getting down to the source of things, he proudly boasted:” there is creeping consumption in the land. It begins with these three fellas and it travels outward. Never in my life have I seen such motley crew. They ask nothing and they receive nothing. Forgiveness is not in them. The wilderness is rotten all over their foreheads. They scorn the widow and abuse the child but I am afraid that they shall not prevail over the young man’s destiny, not even them!” Frank turned with a blast. “ Get out of here, you ragged man. Come ye no more!”
Terry left the room willingly.
“What seems to be a problem?” . Frank turned back to the three kings who were astonished. the first king cleared his throat. His shoes were too big and his crown was wet and lopsided but nevertheless, he began to speak in the most meaningful way.”Frnak “, he began,””Mr.. Dylan has come out with a new record. This record of course features none but his own songs and we understand that you’re the key.”.” that’s right,” said Frank, “ I am.” well then,” said the king in abit of excitement, “could you please open it up for us?” Frank, whom all this time had been reclining with his eyes closed, suddenly opened them both up as wide as a tiger. “ and just how far would you like to go on?” he asked and the three kings all looked at each other.” Not too far but just as far enough so’s we can say that we’ve been there”. Said the first chief.”Allright “ said Frank, “I’ll see what I can do,” and he commenced to doing it. First of all, he sat down and crossed his legs, and then he sprung up, ripped off his shirt and began waving it in the air. A light bulb fell from one of his pockets and he stamped it out with his foot.
Then he took a deep breath, moaned and punched his fist through the plate glass window. Settling back in his chair, he pulled out a knife,” Far enough?” he asked.” Yeah, sure, Frank,” said the second king. The third king just shook his head and said he didn’t know. The first king remained silent. the door opened and Vera stepped in. “ Terry shute will be leaving us soon and he desires to know if you kings got any gifts you want to lay on him.” Nobody answered.
It was just before the break of the day and the three kings were tumbling along the road. The first one’s nose had been mysteriously fixed, the second one’s arm had healed and the third one was rich. All three of them were blowing horns.
“I’ve never been so happy in all my life!” sang the one with all the money.
“oh mighty thing!” said Vera to Frank. “Why didn’t you just tell them you were a moderate man and leave it at that instead of goosing yourself all over the room?”” Patience, Vera,” said Frank. Terry Shute, who was sitting over by the curtain cleaning an axe, climbed to his feet, walked over to Vera’s husband and placed his hand on his shoulder. “ You didn’t hurt your hand, did you Frank?” Frank just sat there watching the workmen replace the window,” I don’t believe so,” he said.

1968 by Bob Dylan

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

one afternoon

sky is blue, birds are singing and it is a warm afternoon. Nothing especial about today, about this moment and about this life.
Water is warm, great for swimming.flowers are smiling at you.
You have everything so beautiful around you and still wondering why you are so sad.
Maybe this is who you are, some disrespectful kind to all these beauties, maybe you are unable to touch the pleasure, and then what was your laughter about in the past.
Was it a fake movement or a pertinence of happy nature?
Why is that you take everything so seriously and what is that you are looking for?
Is that real or an impervious thought?
Maybe you are looking for a deep pain inside you to get the whole out of you. Maybe you cannot handle the beauty of the life.
Maybe your past has bitten your future long time a go, maybe you are jailed unconsciously by your damn past. Maybe you have not forgiven yourself of what happened and maybe you blame yourself of the whole misery came along,
But you should know that everything has vanished and gone by time and it is just you who visualize it day by day.
Stop criticizing yourself and let your soul breath for a moment, you need a fresh air like every single human being existing in life.
Believe in destiny , it helps and believe in happiness and freedom. You fought for your freedom and you fought with your forceful destiny, you needed to be true, you made the impossible possible you suffered so much and you believed in what you were doing, you were a warrior you made a big difference on your time.
So now it is the time to celebrate. Cherish your created moment by yourself, you owe that to you. you owe the happiness and laughter to you..
It is not the time to question your ideas and your thought. After all it is time to cool down and accept your victory.
You are like an old soldier who is used to go to the battles and come back wounded, you are like an old soldier whom has sent back before celebrate the victory. But you should know that there is no battle to go for and there is no enemy to fight with.
Enjoy your freedom and take it easy my friend, before you become your enemy.
get in , remember you have always wanted to be one with the water.

Friday, June 01, 2007

welcome back

It’s been long time since i wrote my last letter.
Yes I call them letters to me to you to them to everybody. you know writing gives me great joy and I can not describe it, but sometimes nothing comes to your mind, I don’t know but maybe writing needs a very special mood , and recently i have not had that.
But I try to go back to my normal routine and do something; it is not that you don’t think about anything, so you cannot put it on the paper. I do think so much, I think about so many different subjects but I have not written about it. Maybe I’ve been lazy, maybe it was because I had a big change in my life and I wasn’t used to it and everything was very new and strange to me and I had to co op with my new sweet but strange situation.
I like my being here and I enjoy my great company, but human beings need time to get used to a new life.
In my life I have lived-in many different lives, and none of them were alike.
So I am somehow used to be in a new situations and being able to get through them peacefully and live my life in different ways, you know you can learn so many things if you live so many different lives. And you always feel young and fresh, because you always have the new beginning and new challenges that make you feel alive.
I love that.
But one thing I’ve learned that writing your spontaneous thought makes you become clear and relieved from anxieties and huge excitements, because you let everything out so you are ready for the new thoughts. So if I don’t want to get stuck in one solid reflection, it is better to start my writings and let them out. Let everything out, so I’ll be free in my mind.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

7 has been always my lucky number

I’m starting a new life with passion.
I’m certain I’ll make it through
I’m certain everything will be going smoothly well, and I’m ertain I’m blessed.
I dreamt about this new begining long time ago and once a psychic told me about that, but I never believed fortunetellers.
I have been practicing life for this upcoming paradise, and I am so ready to start.
There is no delay in my plan, nothing can stop me, as always, and I am going forward.
I am not scared of misery because it cannot reach me up there.
I dealt with a couple anxiety attacks since I’ve decided to take my journey serious and I passed through them contentedly.
I know it is not easy to be perfect, but I’m certain I’m strong enough to make everything desirable and bright.
I am going with a bag full of life stories and I’m going to whisper each of them one by one to your ears.
You’ve been always my ultimate desirable soul to get in to, and now at last
I’m coming along to fulfill it.
I will always remember the year of 2007.7 has been always my lucky number.
I’m starting a new life with passion.
I’m certain I’ll make it through
I’m certain everything goes well, and I’m certain I’m blessed.
I dreamt about this new life style long time ago and one day once a psychic told me about that, but I never believed in fortunetellers.
I have been practicing life for this upcoming paradise, and I am so ready to start.
There is no delay in my plan, nothing can stop me, as always, and I am going forward.
I am not scared of misery because it cannot reach me up there.
I dealt with a couple anxiety attacks since I’ve decided to take my journey serious and I passed through them contentedly.
I know it is not easy to be perfect, but I’m certain I’m strong enough to make everything desirable and bright.
I am going with a bag full of life stories and I’m going to whisper each of them one by one to your ears.
You’ve been always my ultimate desirable soul to get in to, and now at last
I’m coming along.
I will always remember the year of 2007.7 has been always my lucky number.