In an instant of a second, you feel the LOVE.
In this instant, you feel the LOST.
SALOUME NAKHSAZ
Sunday, May 28, 2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
i promise you the beauty of the life
I promise you the beauty of the life, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, my shoulder side by side by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you the greeting of my home every time you step in, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, the birth of our child with pride by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, to walk along every where, any time by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my laughter, my tears by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, being your support, all the time, in the battles of life, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, I’ll be carrying your love in my heart, as long as I am alive, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, the warmth of my touch, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, I’ll be the one, whom you trust, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my innocence, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you all the happiness existing on earth, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to reach the stars, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to believe in miracle by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to believe in GOD by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my fate, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you all my living being, my stance, my thoughts, my soul, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to keep my promise all my life, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, not to make any promise based on ” love”, which wont last long.
“I believe you”.
saloume nakhsaz
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, my shoulder side by side by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you the greeting of my home every time you step in, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, the birth of our child with pride by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, to walk along every where, any time by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my laughter, my tears by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, being your support, all the time, in the battles of life, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, I’ll be carrying your love in my heart, as long as I am alive, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, the warmth of my touch, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, I’ll be the one, whom you trust, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my innocence, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you all the happiness existing on earth, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to reach the stars, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to believe in miracle by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to believe in GOD by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you my fate, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you all my living being, my stance, my thoughts, my soul, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you to keep my promise all my life, by my love.
“I don’t believe you”
I promise you, not to make any promise based on ” love”, which wont last long.
“I believe you”.
saloume nakhsaz
must, do, don't
Running towards the hallowed stream, soaring, inhaling deeply to get my spirit fulfilled.
Closing my eyes, feeling my soul trembling by desire.
Opening my eyes, calling out my heart loudly, begging for silence.
Staring at my point, willing to stop before crossing the edge.
Wishing for clouds to come forward, helping me not to look forward. .
Twisting my body around, to get lost in the crowd.
Getting so high, flying through the sky to forget about my anxious thought.
Locking myself in one block for so long, in order to lose the time.
Leaving the town, hiding in the "nowhere" temple.
That’s all I must do.
That’s all I need to do.
But, I‘ll do nothing but crossing the edge by all aim.
saloume nakhsaz
Closing my eyes, feeling my soul trembling by desire.
Opening my eyes, calling out my heart loudly, begging for silence.
Staring at my point, willing to stop before crossing the edge.
Wishing for clouds to come forward, helping me not to look forward. .
Twisting my body around, to get lost in the crowd.
Getting so high, flying through the sky to forget about my anxious thought.
Locking myself in one block for so long, in order to lose the time.
Leaving the town, hiding in the "nowhere" temple.
That’s all I must do.
That’s all I need to do.
But, I‘ll do nothing but crossing the edge by all aim.
saloume nakhsaz
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
my name is Nina, i am a stripper
My name is Nina, I am a stripper. I am 16, yes, below the age, I used the fake ID in order to get this job.I am going to be here for a short time, just to make 15000 dollars and that’s it. I need only 15000 dollars to be able to go to school, I would like to study fashion design, I like to have my own clothing line, and I just need 15000 dollars.
You asked where my parents are.My parents are somewhere in the world, my dad is a drug addict loser and my mom has a husband who hates me. My mom has more children now, with the new husband, her husband doesn’t let her help me out. Actually one day my step dad caught me when I was at the stage performing, he filmed me and sent it to my mom, and she called me; she couldn’t stop crying, she begged me not to do it any more, I told her I’ll stop stripping if she gives me 15000 dollars, she said she couldn't... and I told her I will keep my job till I save 15000 dollars.
Now I can shop everywhere, all over the places and I get to meet different guys with powers and connections, one of them has promised me to help me go to school, he told me he is going to pay for my school, another has promised me to find me a shelter to live in, and the other has promised me to help me become a super model, the other one has promised me to help me be a movie star and I am happy , because it seems to me that my future is so bright. I have many clients, at different ages and different skills. I socialize with them, so I never feel lonely. I always go for a man I can rely on, and I will never go for someone who is at my age or a few years older, because he wouldn’t have any money to pay for my living and he seems like a child to me. I like elder men with more power and big connections. I’m sure my future is bright. I just need 15000 dollars. And I have already saved a little, you know I have so many expenses and I need more time to save all the 15000 dollars. I need to have beautiful and expensive clothes and other kinds of stuff to be more in fashion and more charming, I need to dress like a queen in order to catch men’s eyes. In a little more time I’ll save up my 15000 dollars and quit this job, as I promised my mom. My name is Nina, it been 3 years, I am working at the same strip club and I am sure this year will be the last year of my stay here, I am just here to save up 15000 dollars to be able to go to school, I still want to have my own clothing line and I want to be a successful designer; like the ones on TV, or I like to be a famous actress. You ask me what happened to the guys who promised me my bright future. Well, they left me, and went for fresher and younger strippers; but I know I can get there on my own. And, I will find new connections. I am certain it won’t take long, I will quit this job when I save up 15000 dollars, as I promised my mother. My name is Nina and I am a stripper, I am 45.I need to save up 15000 dollars to be able to retire. As a day pass by, I am becoming more like a misfit ;my body is losing its beautiful shape day by day and I am losing more and more clients. I need to save up 15000 dollars to be able to quit this job and be on my own for a while, till I find another job as I promised my mother. I still carry my sweet dreams with me all the time; a powerful clothing designer, a beautiful actress living a peaceful life. I am certain I am not going to be here for long. I will save up my 15000 dollars and will look for another job;as I promised my mother. I will get a nice place to stay. And maybe some day I will find my dream man, and my true love. My name is Nina; I am 64, homeless and tired. I was a stripper. Salome N. Saz
Now I can shop everywhere, all over the places and I get to meet different guys with powers and connections, one of them has promised me to help me go to school, he told me he is going to pay for my school, another has promised me to find me a shelter to live in, and the other has promised me to help me become a super model, the other one has promised me to help me be a movie star and I am happy , because it seems to me that my future is so bright. I have many clients, at different ages and different skills. I socialize with them, so I never feel lonely. I always go for a man I can rely on, and I will never go for someone who is at my age or a few years older, because he wouldn’t have any money to pay for my living and he seems like a child to me. I like elder men with more power and big connections. I’m sure my future is bright. I just need 15000 dollars. And I have already saved a little, you know I have so many expenses and I need more time to save all the 15000 dollars. I need to have beautiful and expensive clothes and other kinds of stuff to be more in fashion and more charming, I need to dress like a queen in order to catch men’s eyes. In a little more time I’ll save up my 15000 dollars and quit this job, as I promised my mom. My name is Nina, it been 3 years, I am working at the same strip club and I am sure this year will be the last year of my stay here, I am just here to save up 15000 dollars to be able to go to school, I still want to have my own clothing line and I want to be a successful designer; like the ones on TV, or I like to be a famous actress. You ask me what happened to the guys who promised me my bright future. Well, they left me, and went for fresher and younger strippers; but I know I can get there on my own. And, I will find new connections. I am certain it won’t take long, I will quit this job when I save up 15000 dollars, as I promised my mother. My name is Nina and I am a stripper, I am 45.I need to save up 15000 dollars to be able to retire. As a day pass by, I am becoming more like a misfit ;my body is losing its beautiful shape day by day and I am losing more and more clients. I need to save up 15000 dollars to be able to quit this job and be on my own for a while, till I find another job as I promised my mother. I still carry my sweet dreams with me all the time; a powerful clothing designer, a beautiful actress living a peaceful life. I am certain I am not going to be here for long. I will save up my 15000 dollars and will look for another job;as I promised my mother. I will get a nice place to stay. And maybe some day I will find my dream man, and my true love. My name is Nina; I am 64, homeless and tired. I was a stripper. Salome N. Saz
Monday, May 15, 2006
in the moment of your life
In one moment of your life, you’ll get to this point that it was all illusion and that’s all.
In one moment of your life you’ll get to this point that it was all just imaginings.
In one moment of your life, you’ll see nothing but abstract.
In one moment of your life you’ll see you are stepping downhill
In one moment of your life you’ll see nothing just cloud
In one moment of your life everything around is backwards
In one moment of your life you get to the point you haven’t been in fact in love and all that was your misleading reflections.
In one moment in your life you’ll find out your spirit didn’t tremble; deep down by your heart.
In one moment of your life, you’ll doubt that this existence on this mud was valid.
In one moment of your life you’ll find out your dreams were more real than your true being at present, you wonder if your vision is real and your being is the vision.
In one moment of your life, you’ll reject all doomed matters around you.
In one moment of your life, you’ll regret your happiness and laughter over contemptible affairs.
In one moment of your life you’ll be disappointed with your own nation.
In one moment of your life you’ll regret your possessions on the earth.
In one moment of your life, you’ll abandon your green emotions to the one.
In one moment in your life you’ll abandon your ideas, your thoughts.
In one moment of your life, you’ll care about your” death after life”.
In one moment of your life you’ll decide to “skip all your life.”
In one moment of your life, you’ll find out you are not satisfied after all.
In one moment of your life, you’ll decide to” make changes in your life”
At this moment, you’ll wake up, you’ll turn back, and you’ll find your life “off the sight, you’ll pound, then you’ll find the act very hard, you’ll rather to go on your life “untouched”.
That’s the time; you’ll lose it in instant; by ignoring” that moment in your life”.
So nothing will adjust. Unfairness will give birth more and more, all over. Your homeland will shrink. Your self prides will vanish. Your own language will be ignored. Your family will fall apart. Your talents will be denied. You will abandon your own root,; your native soil.. Your detach t will drain all your heart, by time.
You’ll feel not belonged to anywhere to anyone.
You’ll feel lost all the time by your heart, by your mind.
Just imagine, what would have happened, if you had cherished” that moment of your life”, at the time.
saloume nakhsaz
In one moment of your life you’ll get to this point that it was all just imaginings.
In one moment of your life, you’ll see nothing but abstract.
In one moment of your life you’ll see you are stepping downhill
In one moment of your life you’ll see nothing just cloud
In one moment of your life everything around is backwards
In one moment of your life you get to the point you haven’t been in fact in love and all that was your misleading reflections.
In one moment in your life you’ll find out your spirit didn’t tremble; deep down by your heart.
In one moment of your life, you’ll doubt that this existence on this mud was valid.
In one moment of your life you’ll find out your dreams were more real than your true being at present, you wonder if your vision is real and your being is the vision.
In one moment of your life, you’ll reject all doomed matters around you.
In one moment of your life, you’ll regret your happiness and laughter over contemptible affairs.
In one moment of your life you’ll be disappointed with your own nation.
In one moment of your life you’ll regret your possessions on the earth.
In one moment of your life, you’ll abandon your green emotions to the one.
In one moment in your life you’ll abandon your ideas, your thoughts.
In one moment of your life, you’ll care about your” death after life”.
In one moment of your life you’ll decide to “skip all your life.”
In one moment of your life, you’ll find out you are not satisfied after all.
In one moment of your life, you’ll decide to” make changes in your life”
At this moment, you’ll wake up, you’ll turn back, and you’ll find your life “off the sight, you’ll pound, then you’ll find the act very hard, you’ll rather to go on your life “untouched”.
That’s the time; you’ll lose it in instant; by ignoring” that moment in your life”.
So nothing will adjust. Unfairness will give birth more and more, all over. Your homeland will shrink. Your self prides will vanish. Your own language will be ignored. Your family will fall apart. Your talents will be denied. You will abandon your own root,; your native soil.. Your detach t will drain all your heart, by time.
You’ll feel not belonged to anywhere to anyone.
You’ll feel lost all the time by your heart, by your mind.
Just imagine, what would have happened, if you had cherished” that moment of your life”, at the time.
saloume nakhsaz
Friday, May 12, 2006
real love
Show me the path, or I’ll walk with him on his road.
Give me your hand, or I’ll take his hand in an instant.
Dance with me, or I’ll swing with him in the crowd.
Touch my lips, or I will touch his face by my lips.
laugh with me, or I’ll smile at him while he is passing by.
Be my shoulder, or I’ll chose his shoulder to rely on.
Be my dream man, or I will make him, as my hero.
Take me to the safe side, or I’ll find his shelter the safest place.
Love me, or I’ll ask him to do so.
All i said above, shows my pure and genuine "love" towards you, the purest love you can get on this earth. If you are not certain, I’ll get him to say he trusts me. me.
Saloume nakhsaz .
Give me your hand, or I’ll take his hand in an instant.
Dance with me, or I’ll swing with him in the crowd.
Touch my lips, or I will touch his face by my lips.
laugh with me, or I’ll smile at him while he is passing by.
Be my shoulder, or I’ll chose his shoulder to rely on.
Be my dream man, or I will make him, as my hero.
Take me to the safe side, or I’ll find his shelter the safest place.
Love me, or I’ll ask him to do so.
All i said above, shows my pure and genuine "love" towards you, the purest love you can get on this earth. If you are not certain, I’ll get him to say he trusts me. me.
Saloume nakhsaz .
holly child
Night, night, darken sight, palace all on fire, screaming from far beyond; from the holly land. Hush hush, someone is giving birth somewhere cold! Someone is giving birth a thing with a cross mark on her side and a tulip shape head, this is not normal, it is insane, hush hush.
All the lunatics and confused minds are gathering there. They are watching this tulip shape head creature coming through the womb, along with misery. Some one asks: “who’s this child? I mean who is its father”? The other one reply: “it is belong to one of the holly men. He came to help the lost woman feels closer to god, and the child is the crop of wisdom. Act of god comes along with an upcoming fruit side by side, the fruit is called a "holly spirit".
Saloume nakhsaz
All the lunatics and confused minds are gathering there. They are watching this tulip shape head creature coming through the womb, along with misery. Some one asks: “who’s this child? I mean who is its father”? The other one reply: “it is belong to one of the holly men. He came to help the lost woman feels closer to god, and the child is the crop of wisdom. Act of god comes along with an upcoming fruit side by side, the fruit is called a "holly spirit".
Saloume nakhsaz
Monday, May 08, 2006
all my life
Tired of being wasted, worn-out of going through layers, truth is still hidden so deep in the dark. How can I get there, it’s been long, since I started looking through for it and still incapable of having right respond, I’ve been sheltered all behind.
I’ve been trying so hard to step in my heart and knock it off the rout, then why is it still burning inside, trembling deeply and making everything so hard. I thought, I’d lock that door years ago, lost the key on purpose, and deleted the password off my mind.
Now look at it, it is shaking, trembling. It’s on fire, exploding me and my soul. Shame on me, shame on my aim, shame on my soul, shame on my heart. It’s been a decade since I stopped crying over faith, over lost love and over broken heart; I believed it‘s the result of vanishing my senses through love.
I’ve been meditating for long, so I can keep my heart away from this tragedy coming along with love. I’ve been worshiping knowledge for so long, so I can get away from the misery coming along with my trembling spirit. I’ve been praying all day long to my compassion, so it doesn’t get involved in this “being in love offense”
I’ve been ignoring the cipher of” my eyes my hands, my smile” in the sight.
after all,my soul revealed "my hidden secret,my pain",at the moment he whispered softly: “darling you are deeply in love”
saloume nakhsaz
I’ve been trying so hard to step in my heart and knock it off the rout, then why is it still burning inside, trembling deeply and making everything so hard. I thought, I’d lock that door years ago, lost the key on purpose, and deleted the password off my mind.
Now look at it, it is shaking, trembling. It’s on fire, exploding me and my soul. Shame on me, shame on my aim, shame on my soul, shame on my heart. It’s been a decade since I stopped crying over faith, over lost love and over broken heart; I believed it‘s the result of vanishing my senses through love.
I’ve been meditating for long, so I can keep my heart away from this tragedy coming along with love. I’ve been worshiping knowledge for so long, so I can get away from the misery coming along with my trembling spirit. I’ve been praying all day long to my compassion, so it doesn’t get involved in this “being in love offense”
I’ve been ignoring the cipher of” my eyes my hands, my smile” in the sight.
after all,my soul revealed "my hidden secret,my pain",at the moment he whispered softly: “darling you are deeply in love”
saloume nakhsaz
find your GOD
1, 2, 3, inhale…., dangle…., twist your body. Start moving towards yourself, in a circle, rounded shape, the centre is you, and the whole round is you. Chant, chant, chant.
Pond for one second of million pieces of desires.
Gaze at your aim, aim at your point, run for it, but mingle in a round, don’t lose your tern, or you’ll lose your aim. Wait for your soul to follow your mind and ,stay still till the soul reaches the mind, till they get along, side by side, till they make one .
now it’s you turn, step forward, in the water, wash your soul-mind, come back here, set the fire, step inside, feel the warmth, sense the light, catch the height, touch the life.
you see your soul falling apart, piece by piece ,reaching the top , top of your mind, mind has left behind. in this round, there is no way to make them one.
Let the mind step aside, it is blind; the light is more than its kind.
The pieces of soul; have made the divine above the time, in the mass light.
At this instant you are the GOD .
Saloume nakhsaz
Pond for one second of million pieces of desires.
Gaze at your aim, aim at your point, run for it, but mingle in a round, don’t lose your tern, or you’ll lose your aim. Wait for your soul to follow your mind and ,stay still till the soul reaches the mind, till they get along, side by side, till they make one .
now it’s you turn, step forward, in the water, wash your soul-mind, come back here, set the fire, step inside, feel the warmth, sense the light, catch the height, touch the life.
you see your soul falling apart, piece by piece ,reaching the top , top of your mind, mind has left behind. in this round, there is no way to make them one.
Let the mind step aside, it is blind; the light is more than its kind.
The pieces of soul; have made the divine above the time, in the mass light.
At this instant you are the GOD .
Saloume nakhsaz
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