one afternoon

sky is blue, birds are singing and it is a warm afternoon. Nothing especial about today, about this moment and about this life.
Water is warm, great for swimming.flowers are smiling at you.
You have everything so beautiful around you and still wondering why you are so sad.
Maybe this is who you are, some disrespectful kind to all these beauties, maybe you are unable to touch the pleasure, and then what was your laughter about in the past.
Was it a fake movement or a pertinence of happy nature?
Why is that you take everything so seriously and what is that you are looking for?
Is that real or an impervious thought?
Maybe you are looking for a deep pain inside you to get the whole out of you. Maybe you cannot handle the beauty of the life.
Maybe your past has bitten your future long time a go, maybe you are jailed unconsciously by your damn past. Maybe you have not forgiven yourself of what happened and maybe you blame yourself of the whole misery came along,
But you should know that everything has vanished and gone by time and it is just you who visualize it day by day.
Stop criticizing yourself and let your soul breath for a moment, you need a fresh air like every single human being existing in life.
Believe in destiny , it helps and believe in happiness and freedom. You fought for your freedom and you fought with your forceful destiny, you needed to be true, you made the impossible possible you suffered so much and you believed in what you were doing, you were a warrior you made a big difference on your time.
So now it is the time to celebrate. Cherish your created moment by yourself, you owe that to you. you owe the happiness and laughter to you..
It is not the time to question your ideas and your thought. After all it is time to cool down and accept your victory.
You are like an old soldier who is used to go to the battles and come back wounded, you are like an old soldier whom has sent back before celebrate the victory. But you should know that there is no battle to go for and there is no enemy to fight with.
Enjoy your freedom and take it easy my friend, before you become your enemy.
get in , remember you have always wanted to be one with the water.

welcome back

It’s been long time since i wrote my last letter.
Yes I call them letters to me to you to them to everybody. you know writing gives me great joy and I can not describe it, but sometimes nothing comes to your mind, I don’t know but maybe writing needs a very special mood , and recently i have not had that.
But I try to go back to my normal routine and do something; it is not that you don’t think about anything, so you cannot put it on the paper. I do think so much, I think about so many different subjects but I have not written about it. Maybe I’ve been lazy, maybe it was because I had a big change in my life and I wasn’t used to it and everything was very new and strange to me and I had to co op with my new sweet but strange situation.
I like my being here and I enjoy my great company, but human beings need time to get used to a new life.
In my life I have lived-in many different lives, and none of them were alike.
So I am somehow used to be in a new situations and being able to get through them peacefully and live my life in different ways, you know you can learn so many things if you live so many different lives. And you always feel young and fresh, because you always have the new beginning and new challenges that make you feel alive.
I love that.
But one thing I’ve learned that writing your spontaneous thought makes you become clear and relieved from anxieties and huge excitements, because you let everything out so you are ready for the new thoughts. So if I don’t want to get stuck in one solid reflection, it is better to start my writings and let them out. Let everything out, so I’ll be free in my mind.