will you help me father?

Father: where is your striking psyche?
where is your infinite desire?
where is your combatant strength?
where is your brawny footsteps?
where is your cheery countenance?
where is your mesmerizing temperament?
where is your vigorous compassion?
where is your intelligent perception?
She: I am tired father.
I am immobile, sightless, dead-brain soul for sometimes, I am tired.
I am getting as mortal as anyone could be, I am getting as ineffectual minded as any One could be.
Something happened.
since then
I’m carrying an enduring pain along.
I’ve been wounded contemptibly in an ultimate brutal conflict.
i'm getting destroyed eventually to the end.

Father: I’ll help you my darling; I’ll save your life. I help you put this fateful incident Out of your mind,
Just tell me what happened?

She: one night; someone took me to the place, where I saw the heaven and the
Hell and the earth one after another:
He asked me to close my right eye and look at
The place with my left eye open: there was heaven. Then with just my right eye open: there
Was hell?
Then I opened both of my eyes; there was him in front of me.
He told me since he showed me every part of life, I must choose which
One I want to live my life in;
He told me I could change my Mind for two times and not more. I chose
Heaven, he blocked my right eye’s sight rightaway,
I panicked and Said, wait, I want to see hell, he blocked my left eye’s sight, I screamed out loud:
: I want to see my life with my both eyes open. He gave my eyesight back, and said:
Now you have both eyes’ sights free of heaven and hell

Since then I’ve been in massive pain and see nothing but dirt.
you Know father there was no pain in the hell but dirt. I wish I’d chosen “ hell”.

Will you help me father?

Father: my darling, life is much easier with eyes half closed,
Didn’t you notice people do that to survive,to be happy.
you made the wrong choice of
Wanting your both eyes be open. Now it is better you close your eyes and see
Nothing, since you have no more choices left
. Believe me it is better if you don’t see what you seeing right now,it is better if
you don't feel what you feeling right now,it is safe.

She: alright,will you close my eyes?
father:i will .

It's been a while that i've been noticing life acting such comical , but not witty ,so i've been laughing at it (but not with it).

new resume

After I've been given this new job, ask me to hand them an updated resume matching my new job title( for the future records) "advantage of having good connections"

Lately everything is working upside down, I guess.
" impossible is possible and the old possible has been left alone"

Today I see:

Puking lunch, before digesting it."preferring to make a close relationship with the toilet bowl, than gaining 1 more pound"
Getting jealous, before knowing the reason." blind obsession or lack of confidence"

Being born before having parents. Later on they find a mommy or daddy or both for the baby, but only if she is cute. " human rights!"

Getting pregnant, before making love.yes, no more child sharing.no more headaches "advantage of the new technology, no more broken hearts".

Losing a mother, before knowing enough of her, but how exiting is that? welcoming a new father instead. What a nice transform! "make some changes in your life , live with exitements: the new theory"

Teaching children how to act gay, before acknowledging them as one. "imaginary freedom"

Becoming Moslem, before having a name, before being born. "relegion's massive power"

Signing the new proposal, before accepting it. "deceiving politic"

Going under abortion, before having the first period. " stupidity hidden under the freedom's flag "

Shaving the beard, before witnessing its existence. " masculan's unrealistic proud"

Getting old before acting young. " nervous break down"
Dying young, before getting old. "new versions of heart attacks "
Getting cancer, before smoking cigarettes. "chemicals"

Being convicted, before being criminal. "miscommunication's fault"
Going to war, before knowing the enemies. "Real estate agency's contest"
Obeying rule, before reviewing its justice. "lack of time and patience'"

taking antidepression, before the depression. don't worry, depression will come along afterwards, so why not curing it beforhand" time saving and great consideration"

…
…
…
What will tomorrow look like?
No idea.

an appeal to majesty

My majesty
My name is..., I am a prisoner who is convicted guilty by the law.
I’ve been told that if I make a plea to you they’ll softer my sentence.
First let me tell you why I have been jailed.
I am convicted of molesting a newborn zip file hidden in the executive committee’s USB.
They say I did something cruel, and outrage.
Let me make this brief beforehand, that your existence to me is a big question mark itself,
But if writing to you will lesser my time in prison, I'm going to make-believe otherwise.
I suppose that if I have to accept your being, I must also accept you as my creator, because these two essentials come after another.
So if this is what you are: my majesty, our creator, I consider others and myself as your teddy bears.
My majesty may I ask you something?
Have you made us as your sexual fantasies?
Because when I look at the whole life string, its ending part points at…...matter, with different scenarios, and an enormous variety of characters. Honestly isn’t this your purpose of your magnificent performance?
If is that so, then would you make an exception in your playground's rules book and get me out of here?
My mejesty Think about it, I am one of your updated toys, so I needed to have a new edition of o...m.

Finally my inquisitive heart's inherent incapacity to unite with the lenght of my remained time showed up , no more vacillating. No more reserves. No more tenderness.no more disappointments. no more regrets.
now it's time to carry on the journey with a subtle mind.

love cycle

Once I demolished an appealing snake, unaware.
After long he shattered me, aware.

sweet tranquilizer

When you are among your friends and you feel lonely
When you are getting so much attention from the crowd and you feel left alone

When you are laughing loud and you feel sad
When you are waking up in the morning and you feel lost
When you are saying hi to everyone and you sound strange.
When you are praying to god and you feel no sensation
When you are walking under the sun and you feel the breeze
When your warm eyes showing off your confidence and you feel its infertility
When you are socializing with so many acquaintances and you feel speechless
When
( You need to talk, you need to cry, you need warm hands to hold you, you need an intensive love from around, you need trustful ears, you need loving eyes, you need acceptance),
but you feel powerless to acknowledge that,
Is, when your heart has broken and is shutting down.
there is no tranqulizer for the demolished heart, but the slayer's touch.

you be fair

i don't see any miscalculation in life,you always get what you deserve.
think about it deeply, about any small detail in your lives, honestly, was life unfair to you or you pretended to be beaten by life's cruelty?
sometimes we lie, even to ourselves to get rid of the huge responsibility of taking care of our own selves in the best way.

sagacity

This common saying is such a known cliché: whenever you are sick you get to realize how much worthy is your health and how much longer you desire to live your life. But it is happening to all of us, in everyday of our lives. And as a matter of fact, we as human beings keep forgetting this truth that we shouldn’t take anything we own for granted, such as our health, our youth, our beauty, our loved ones and also the ones who love us.
Nothing lasts forever; neither health nor love. .

it is not about me

i know someone who reads my blog and takes everything too personal!
-take it easy chap. these are just stories and some observations from all the people around me, sometimes when i read a book or watch a movie i find my character. some times when i see a fellow at subway i find my character. these characters are my studies from different aspects and variation of situations and lives.
i make them up , i polish them , i direct them to play on my imaginery terms.
it is not personal, my personal matters goes starightly into my diary book not on a public black board or through random"but respectful" ears.and you know that better than anyone else .

a joke!

--What are you doing?

-I am rubbing clay mask on my face.

--What for?

-To be beautiful!
--What are you doing now?
- Washing off my face.
-- Oh you gave up?


That was a joke I heard today!
Lets try to laugh a little.

clashing

lets stop misjudging your own kind.
lets stop being derisive.
lets not be this much narrow-minded.
lets not be so mistrustful about eachother.
lets not hunt a shadow just because it looked like a frightening wolf from far away, wait, till the shadow comes closer, then you will see it was just a fellow hastening to be noticed by you.
lets not fake a smile.you'd better cry out loud instead, but deeply from bottom of your heart, because it is more genuine and obviously more effectual.
The bottom line: lets not show this convoluted, excruciating life nuller than it is.

am i who i think i am?

Sometimes you are out of your mind. Have this ever happened to you?
It happened to me today, ya it hit me and I am still so shocked how I did that, I mean what I did today is impossible to be revealed by me or by anyone else, no one on this planet would find out about that, I wont tell anyone, and I am also certain that the people who were involved in this incident won’t say a word .
Me being so confused and incapable of picturing myself getting in to such an unexpected character ,capableof doing what I did today.
But the truth is that I did it and I did it and I did it.
So it is the time for me to reveal this bitter truth that every one in this planet can do anything, and how far we are capable of longing , is unbelievable scary.
We may do anything, and everything we do just depends on our mood and the situation we are in, and that is it; no more innocent human being exist on this planet.
If I could do it, then you can do it, she can do it and he can do it, but in different occasions.
Time will show off this bitter fact.
if you don’t believe this, just wait, you’ll see.
but be careful.

is it fair or unfair!

Is it fair or not fair?
You’ve been having a serious relationship for a few years, you are happy but you are not in love. She loves you and you like her. She is very nice and you appreciate it, she is cute and you like that. And lately you have been thinking of going to the next step in your relationship, because you think tat it’s a time, eventhough you are not in love with her, but because she loves you and she is giving you a good company and she is always there for you and you are spending most of your time together, so why not getting engaged and then marry her to make her happier.
But meanwhile you decide to take a vacation to your homeland to see your family and old friends. You say bye to her and she cries and says that she will miss you and you tell her that you will miss her too, and it is just a month of separation and it will be passed bye so fast.
At that point you are so honest and you are telling the truth. You really want to see your family and old friends and you really need a vacation alone to relax and rest a little bit among them.
You go to your homeland and you see your family and old friends, you are happy.
You talk to your girl over the phone every day, either she calls you or you do so, your family knows her and they respect her, because the matter of time has shown that she loves you and she is a very nice girl.
While you are back there, she is missing you everyday, she tries to do something special for you, a surprise , to make you exited and reveals how much she cares about you
So she tries so hard,uses all her talent and redecorate your apartment ,she starts painting the walls.she's done a great job, so when someone looks at the walls , can feel the love, which is behind it.
She counts the days to get close to the date you are coming back.
back there you are having fun with your family and friends, you go out every night and hang out with your pals and you are happy.
Girls are attracted to you, because you are handsome and fun. you also flirt a little with them, as it is in your nature, you used to be a great player, but you have cut it down for your girl in order she doesn't get hurt,and everything is ok.
All of a sudden one of these nights, you go to a coffee shop meet your brother’s girlfriend and she comes with a friend, you go close to acknowledge them and say hi, you look at her and you fall in love, yes that simple .
After all these years being here and all over the world and after spending years with your girl whom loves you and you felt liking her, and after all these years persuading yourself that there is no such a thing like love and getting ready to go in to a bigger commitment in your relationship, just 10 days before coming back here, in the most ordinary place, you've met the most extraordinary girl of your life, and you've fallen in love.
You are deeply in love and confused how this happened .you feel joy, you are up in the sky of happiness and she is as well, she is in love with you too and she is amused with this blink of high emotion, she as well is in there to see her family, she as well lives in a foreign land, and she has just come here to relax and spend time for a month in the homeland, but she has to go in 2 days, she is happy and she is sad, you are happy and you are sad, she goes to the airport to leave , she says bye you say bye, she pounds she comes back, and she says : I’ll stay till the end of your time, and we will leave our home land at the same time, even 7 more days is better than no more days. You spend all your time together, both families are surprised and worried at the same time, first they don’t believe there is a real love, and they think it is just a desire and a simple sexual attraction, but no it is not so. They are so confused.
You are so in love that you forget about your girl in here, you don’t call her anymore, you are in no doubt that your life is with your real new love.
now it is time to go back ,you both cry , you promise each other that you will get back together soon, she tells you where ever you are she wants to be there ,and you are admiring her with your eyes and with your heart.
You are back in here , at the airport it is her waiting for you to come, she is happy and exited she has changed her hair color to make herself more attractive for you and she's blushed , she kisses you and you are just a dead body with no reaction.
She goes in a deep thought that what on earth has happened to you, she waits, she takes you home she opens the door, you get in you see the walls, you close your eyes, you rush in to your room and close the door. You cry with your heart for her tender, you feel so guilty but you also feel joy at the same time, you've already missed the one and you can not look in the girl’s eyes, she opens the door, she comes to you, she put her hands on your shoulder, you don’t move, you say softly: I’m sorry, but I need sometimes lone by myself, please leave me alone. I am in such a painful mess, she cries she expected some thing else, she is there to be kissed, she is the to make love to you, she is there to hear how much you have missed her, but you cannot even touch her face, you are loyal to your love and you cannot touch anybody just your love. You are wondering: back then I used to play and act very well now, why can’t I even pretend. You answer to yourself: because back then there was not such person whom you really feel love for. You have changed, yes just in 10 days you have changed 1000 times.
She cries , she says to you I will come back tomorrow, I am sure tomorrow you will feel alright, it is just jet lack or a cold or a massive tiresome.
She says :see you tomorrow and she leaves.

your massive happiness has caused her a massive misery. what should be done?

would you read this note loud?i cannot read it.

real charm

She shook his hands and said: I am leaving you. Don’t you hear that?

He was looking at the other woman beside the window.

She said: answer me

He was looking at the woman beside the window

She whispered: even now, at the moment of parting, at your last moments of being with me you cannot see me, you cannot hear me. You cannot feel me. Can you?

He still was looking at the woman beside the window.

She followed his eyes, and caught the woman beside the window.

She asked: is she the one?

He didn’t answer and still was looking at the woman beside the window.

She cried : I am leaving you, but I want you to know that I have always loved you, and I know at this point it doesn’t matter to you. You are in love with the woman beside the window.

She took her bag and started walking to the door, she decided to pass through the corner that woman was standing, she wanted to smell her, she wanted to feel her, she wanted to understand the better quality of her being, she wanted to discover her unique charm which could hypnotized her man.

She went beside her, no smell, no feeling, and no sense of life. She touched the woman’s hand, she terrified.

The woman beside the window was a lifeless sculpt in the shape of a woman.
A perfect body with no touch of life.
That was its unique charm to the man.


saloume nakhsaz

In the middle of thunderstorm, somebody came in and splashed the water
The water turned in to a blue river, the river’s intention was getting in to the gigantic ocean, the ocean was green all green, and the sky on the top of it was black, the purple sun was shining, the black moon was hidden beside the sun.
The thunderstorm came to the target one more time, suddenly, the ocean became a desert and the sky became a mount and the sun became a beautiful woman, the moon showed up as one man, the woman smiled at the man, the man approached the beautiful woman
And life began.

advantages of freedom

She is not certain .She is doubtful about the existence of real happiness. She suspects the individuality of a deep pain.Her respond to love is considered "inappropriate" by common people in town. Her reaction to "loyalty" is not the same with the others' , therefore she has been known as someone who disbelieves commitments of all sorts. Sometimes I think if she wasn't growing up in such an open minded way, and if her guardians had not respected her self-decisions as much, and if they'd not paid so much attention to her needs, which used to vary all the time, she would have been living an easier life ; and she would have been much more determined in making permanent decisions for her own good(in the others' eyes, so she'd not have been judged by them all the time in her life.) She'd always have so many choices in front of her to pick , and what she has been doing is "picking them one by one, at the fastest pace.So, her personality became so spontaneous, and in some people's eyes as ” wild “ and in the others', somewhat "unfaithful". Her other problem is that I cannot tell you how quickly she gets bored of everything she is working on at that moment of her life. She knows about so many things here and there, and she is not interested in or passionate about anything, ”how is it possible to concentrate in just one thing; to get so much involve with that one thing!" says she. for her "it is impossible””. Sometimes freedom and having open minded and caring parents not only is not so comforting for the person, but also is confusing and causes problems in such limiting society in the long run. Salome N.Saz

puzzle# 2

The word"LIFE" is a puzzle.
Take out the” if” from the “l if e”.
the real word is “le”, which holds a hidden 3'dl letter, in the middle of it .
So at the beginning, not even one soul is able to realize the true meaning of “ life” .
but after sometimes, an “I” will show up ,right in the middle ; with a cold smile.

midnight dreams

I have lost my optimistic vision in a terrible incident, and I take the blame for it.
I have lost my fate in a painful battle, and I take the blame for it.
I have lost my soul’s innocence in a scornful catastrophe, and I take the blame for it.
I have lost my dreams in a tormenting homicide and I am the one who takes the blame for it.
I have lost the most beautiful picture ever in my heart, at a bizarre, terrifying moment of one midnight, and I am the one to blame.
I am starting to get a new shape of life; I am restructuring my new brain cells, new vision and new heart, with no dreams.
Life is what it is, and what it is, and what it is, life is an influential compulsion which throws away all of those naive dreams by the time they are getting so close to come through, right at a bizarre, terrifying moment of one midnight.